it is a known fact that university is not gonna be easier than highschool.
of course it’s going to make you work harder and probably hate life coz of how
stressed you are. but going into university made me have positive and good
vibes. to the point where im like “omg its wednesday today, im excited to
go to econ!” because i actually like the class and looked forward to attending
my prof’s lecture because he’s not boring. sometimes, i’d hate to go home
because i would rather much prefer to stayat school, at the TFDL library and
just do hw there. im more distracted at home AND i have to do chores
which interrupts my hw/study time :S and as my first semester of university comes
to an end, i knew i had to sit my ass down and study for finals. and i did. i’ve
never studied that hard since the IB exams. maybe even harder coz i cared more
about uni final exams than some $200 or so exam for IB. and obviously, me thinking
that “hard work pays off” made me feel relieved and confident to go write my finals.

but in the end, “hard work” did not pay off that much. my friends who didn’t
even go to their lecture and there’s me who has never skipped a lecture got a
better grade than me and got a higher mark in the end than me. and also, some didn’t even bother studying for 2 days for the final and they STILL get the better mark. at this point, i just don’t understand. i just really dont understand. like 
did i deserve this or what?

but as the title of this post says, im not born a quitter. i really am not. at this point, the most obvious thing to do is stand back up on my feet and try harder.
harder than i did in the first sem. not that i didn’t try hard but x1000 more. i
learned that sometimes, even though you think you hit rock bottom, it really isn’t
the “bottom” yet. as long as you know that there are more chances and that
its not too late to make up for it, you’ll achieve what you really want.

so here i am, conquering sem 2 with a game face on and ready to not make the same mistake twice. I WILL KILL YOU SEM 2. WATCH ME.